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Ruined

Audiobook
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"It happened on a Sunday night, even though I'd been a good girl and gone to church that morning."

One brisk November evening during her senior year at a small midwestern Christian college, two armed intruders broke into the house Ruth Everhart shared with her roommates, held all five girls hostage, and took turns raping them at gunpoint. Reeling with fear, insecurity, and guilt, Ruth believed she was ruined, both physically and in the eyes of God.

In the days and weeks that followed, Ruth struggled to come to grips with not only what happened that night but why. The same questions raced through her mind in an unrelenting loop―questions that would continue to haunt her for years to come: Why me? Where was God? Why did God allow this to happen? What am I being punished for?

Told with candor and unflinching honesty, Ruined is an extraordinary emotional and spiritual journey that begins with an unspeakable act of violence but ends with tremendous healing and profound spiritual insights about faith, forgiveness, and the will of God.

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    • Publisher's Weekly

      Starred review from June 13, 2016
      In her second memoir, Presbyterian pastor Everhart (Chasing the Divine in the Holy Land) reflects on being sexually assaulted when she was a college student, the assault’s emotional aftermath, and its theological implications. Raised in an insulated Dutch community and the Christian Reformed Church, Everhart’s worldview was forever changed when two men broke into her apartment and raped her. She asks where God was during the brutality, where she was being punished for her sexual experiences, and how a God who wills everything could will something so terrible to happen. In addition to her theological analysis, Everhart is at her best when dismantling the sexism that surrounds rape. She recounts how she sucked in her stomach when asked to strip because, “that’s how thoroughly had internalized the fact that a woman should make herself attractive to the eyes of a man.” She recalls her anger when the doctor who performed her rape kit referred to her rapist as a “clown.” She looks at why many people treat rape differently from other injuries and reminds readers that rape cannot make women less whole. Everhart also includes examples of how churches can provide support to rape survivors. This is a touching and empowering story of healing. Agent: Chip MacGregor, MacGregor Literary.

    • AudioFile Magazine
      Narrator Pamela Almand's warm, motherly tone seamlessly guides listeners through Ruth Everhart's memoir. The author is seeking to understand the truth about God's will, the value of self-worth, and the gift of redemption after she is raped as a college student. As the book ranges from flashbacks to intense conversations to isolated prayers, Almand imbues each scene and character with vibrant and distinctive qualities that listeners will latch onto. After Almand concludes the last chapter of the audiobook, Everhart's soothing voice delivers the epilogue, a letter to her daughters. As she explains what prompted her to share her story, Everhart offers listeners a brief and honest reflection of her soul searching, growth, and renewed belief in God. V.C. © AudioFile 2017, Portland, Maine

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